Why I Need to Have My Back

Trust is a loosely used term.

Imagine if we are alert always, disappointment will never set in and trust never gets violated.

Trusting someone means that we expect them to conform. When the person does not follow the unspoken rule, we get upset.

I realised over time, that trusting people was going to be the end of me. I was fragile unable to move ahead. After thinking, analysing, and beating myself, I realised that I had let down my guard. That was wrong on my part.

I let go, I felt free.

It dawned on me that my heart was not made to be crushed. I have to take care of myself, not be used again and again. I also accepted the bitter truth - there are no sureties in life.

We come into this world alone and go alone.

Why have expectations anyway, right? When you do not expect anything from anyone, you do not get hurt. Ditto with others, they cannot expect you to conform to their set of rules. Yes?

I don’t know about your points of view, but I am pretty sure that when you trust someone you expect them to do the same. Once trust goes out the door, you cannot get it back.

On this note, for the new year, I’m gonna have my back because no one will have mine.

A pretty maudlin start to the year, but a stepping stone in the right direction.

How about you?

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