I feel myself drifting away
I have no out
I wonder what life is all about
Why am I here?
My sins are too many to bear
I look at God on the cross and wonder how He kept going
When everyone around hurled abused at Him
Why should I crib?
But…
My life is nothing short of settling
I keep on at this
Settle because someone expects it of me
I settle because without settling I dismay the persons who are hurt the most
I settle because that is what I do
Is there a solution to this settling, I wonder?
I look at Jesus on the cross and realize He never settled
He bore my sins, He still does
He asks me to accept my situation
I try
I fail
I try and fail again
I am a mere mortal
I am me
But …
The problems are accumulating
There does not seem to be any solution
What should I do?
Perhaps…. I have to settle
Because that is what I do
I settle
There is strife everywhere
People unhappy
There is no joy
There is a constant burden
There is no laughter
There is dismay
There is sorrow
There is sadness
There is gloom
What is the solution?
Perhaps the way out is to settle
I agonize
Weep bitterly
Keep crying
Shout
Yell abuses
Cringe at the person I am
At the person I have become
Is this because of circumstances?
Is this the real me?
An unhappy, ungrateful, sad excuse of a human being
What do I do to get out of this crappy existence?
Walk away sounds like a perfect idea
Reality hits - the possibility is an impossibility
The only way out…settle
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