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I am annoyed. So what’s new! I change. Get annoyed again. So what’s new! I start another game of moving towards a positive me. Get annoyed… again. Yeah yeah so what’s new! You get the drift, I’m sure. Started out pretty sprightly this morning but it did not continue this way because I gave into something that I promised myself I wouldn’t. You guessed it – got annoyed. I had words with a person who uses age to get her way. I gave in. Came back and pondered over the issue, started second guessing myself and was gloomy for the rest of the day. Oh damn, why did I go there? Why couldn’t I stay away? Was I wrong? Was the buffoon right? Or was I?

I am sure you get these feelings me dahlings, what do you do? Let yourself get hot and bothered like yours truly did or walk away. I really try, believe me. I do. Even if I started this piece with the getting annoyed factor! I am actually, a peace loving person. Truly I am! Loathe anger in fact I detest it immensely and run a mile from bigotry. I use the context, in this regard because of the unfairness of age, illness or lack of basic human values. What can I say, except that I lost the fight for a while, but I am back to finish, without giving into the rantings and ravings of people who come my way, especially during Lent.

This season has such a great meaning for us Christians. We do all that we can for the greater glory of God. Many argue that Lenten resolutions are not mentioned in the Bible. But the fact of the matter is simple really – we cut back on stuff that we crave to get closer to God. And this is usually achieved through sacrifice and penance. Many give up meat during this holy period. Some cut back on partying, others fast during the entire season, some give up television, social networking sites, some sex, the list is endless.

On Ash Wednesday, the priest at the church we visited reflected on the role that we can follow during this season. Ash Wednesday and Good Friday are the two days that we fast, and we do, (at least most of us). One suggestion was to fast from habits like egoism, malice, anger, jealousy, materialism, overindulgence, comeuppance, etc. And of course, I chose…. You guessed it! And I was good, until today. Oh it is a problem, really it is. I am trying to get past it. But does it mean that I have to be the bigger person and settle the score? Or should I? Should I? Shouldn’t I? Must I???? What do I do?

Grrr can feel the annoyance creeping in............

Help!

Xo
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